best songs last damn nite :
Ari - Mencintai tuk Disakiti
RR - Ingin Hilang Ingatan
Celine Dion & Paul Anka - It's Hard To Say Goodbye
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.
.
knp
ga
biarin
guee
ga
tau
apa"
.??
.
.
I'M LOSING MY GRIP
I'D RATHER LOSING ALL
I'D RATHER TOTALLY DYING
best songs last damn nite :
Ari - Mencintai tuk Disakiti
RR - Ingin Hilang Ingatan
Celine Dion & Paul Anka - It's Hard To Say Goodbye
.
.
.
knp
ga
biarin
guee
ga
tau
apa"
.??
.
.
I'M LOSING MY GRIP
I'D RATHER LOSING ALL
I'D RATHER TOTALLY DYING
Posted by ggar'' at 17.22 0 comments
feel like i have no one
i'm melting by nothing
in no where
'n there will be no when
clock stops its click
time stops runnin'
but fuckin' hurt damn beats in my heart still beating
singin' a heretic anthem
let me moan
let me dyin' inside
sure
i'm completely crashed
i'll completely mad
Posted by ggar'' at 17.04 0 comments
balikin
rambut
guee
T_T
bete bgt. ud gw blng ptong ujung'y dikit ajaa. tp ttep aj rambut gw d babat ma c mas" (ato mba"?) sialaaann. kependekaan njing!
" aneh gar..."
" lucu jg..."
" kyk jamuuurrr...ahahaha....."
" ga nyadar umur lo..."
" kmrn kyk setan lokal. skrg setan jepang..."
" bgus koq ggar..."
" kyk helm..."
" tinggal pke cadar jd helm full face dh..."
nyesel gw ga stey et hum ajaa.
.
.
c banci yg motong rambut gw bkin gw kpikiran ade gw. gw inget masa" ade gw sering bantuin gw ng'rol rambut gw, ngeritingin rambut gw pke kurukuru. telaten abis. nyokap gw aja kalah. harus'y gw seneng dong punya ade kyk gt. tp gw malah pgn nangis inget'y. coz ade gw COWO. wajar ga sih anak co kls 2 SMP sering ngomen rambut ato baju" gw??? gw jd pnasaran, jgn" ade gw sering make baju gw pas gw ga ada.
but fyuuuhhh, smalem gw iseng buka" hp tu anak. smsan'y ce semua n_n plong! brarti ade gw bukan banci, ato seengga'y bkn homo. hheu..
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'py 8th annvrsry n_n hbie&niky
sial bgt pagi" ud d krjain bungkusin kado. tp gw seneng.....soulmate cadangan'quu tersayang awet ma ce'y. walo bkin gw ngiri T_T kangen hilmaaaannnn...........
hbie, hbie, hbie. org yg paling tw gw pa ada'y gw. soulmate cadangan gw. hhe.. yg slalu ada wt gw wkt smua org yg lain sibuk ma idup'y masing". thx for never let me feel alone.... BESTFRIEND FOREVER, rite? n_n
januari'07, bener kt gw kn bie n_n lebih enak qt tmenan ajaaa. lo utang ma gw ni. klo gw ga gt dl, lo blom tentu ky skrg ma niky. dy lbh sgala'y dr gw n_n she loves u much, i know. glad to see u happy brother.....!!
Posted by ggar'' at 20.07 1 comments
" jlx inget kan ni hari apa?"
y iyalah inget. damn it valentine. hari yg prnh bkin gw bahagia seanjing-anjing sblm gw nyadar klo hari ni jg yg bkal bkin gw nangis seanjing-anjing.
" ok rfq tw gtw malu bgt rfq blng ky gn, tp bs ga jlx ksi rfq ksempatan..... wt ktiga kali'y rfq nyoba wt byr smua salah q dlu ma km."
n bwt ktiga kali'y kacauin idup gw? you wish!
" q msh slalu syng m km. q ga prnh nemuin syng dr ce lain yg ky syng km wt rfq."
thx GOD. doa gw d kabulin. mang ga ada, ga kan prnh ada yg syng ma lo ky gw. cm gw. tp skrg yg ada tinggal lo nyesel, coz smua tu gkan prnh gw blikin lg ky dl. suruh sapa lo nyia-nyiain gw.
" knp km ga blng km ud pny co lg? sngaja y bkin q ngarep?"
salah gw? salah lo np ga nanya.
" ok, mang dr awal q yg salah. salah klo ngarep km msh syng m q seudah smua yg q ksi m km. hrs'y yg q harapin km bs maafin q."
kpn gw ga maafin lo?
" slama'y cm km jlx'y rfq."
........... i've promised that too. but just it.
.
.
knp org yg prnh jahatin gw slalu minta balik lg ma gw? 'n wkt gw ngsih jwban "iya" ujung'y tu ngasih ruang buat tu org ngulangin salah yg sama. ky gt berulang-ulang. sampe2 da tmn gw yg blng klo idup gw cuma muter2 d satu tempat. lingkaran setan.
but at last, gw brhasil loncat kluar dari tu sumur. ga ada lingkaran setan lagi. ga ada jg lingkaran yg baru. yg ada cm jalan lurus k depan.
Posted by ggar'' at 06.15 0 comments
gueee,
s h o c k
s y o k
s i i o k k
k a g e t .
kayak'y ga penting bgtt dh dy majang poto CE BARU NYA sgede bagong gtuu d fs. mending gtuu tu ce sbagus apaa.
masih bagusan gw. masih cantikan gw. iya koq gar. masih cantikan lo gar..... (ngmong d ulang-ulang sambil jedukin kepala k tembok)
tp bneran. masih bagusan gw............. heran! apa yg bkin tu org milih tu ce. lebih'y dy d banding gw paling-paling cuma satu, lebih muda. tu doang. dasar anak SMA sial.
ok lah, out of my business.
oiaa.. ga nyangka trnyata seisi rumah gw pecandu trmehek-mehek. dan mau ga mau gw jd nonton jg. hasil'y...... gw makin ilfeel ma CO. pdhl gw gy dlm masa ngyakinin diri gw sndiri kalo ga semua co ujung-ujung'y anjing. he..
tp kayak'y...... 'diaa yg inii' ga bakal ky gtuu n_n moga ajaa.
Posted by ggar'' at 05.46 0 comments
kangen.
bgt.
enam taun bareng-bareng akhir'y pisah juga. depok-bogor-bandung. gw bener-bener keilangan kaliaan beibb..... rasa'y ga pernah cukup lewat sms, telpon, gw kangeeen. gw ga bakal prnah brubah, ttep kaliaan bdua yg gw cari wkt gw sneng, sedih..... gw msi pgn ngbisin smua wktu gw ma kliaan.
yakin. ga bkal gw tmuin lg dua sahabat yg ky kalian.
kangen..... gw butuh kliaan bdua yg meluk gw wkt gw nangis. yg nampar gw wkt salah. yg ikut ktawa wkt gw ktawa. THX. thx bgt slalu bs nerima gw, ky gmana pun gw. slalu bs nerima gw, sgede apapun slh gw. sbodoh apapun hal yg gw lakuin.
kita b'tiga mang beda. 'n kliaan bdua nglengkapin gw.
gw kangen ma cara kliaan nyikapin gw. respon kliaan ma cerita" gw. hal-hal bodoh yg gw lakuin. gw slalu pgn ktawa ngliat gygy yg respon prtama'y slalu "gimanaa rasa'y...????" dgn muka antusias, beda ma deth yg pasti dluan nanya "ggar........km th knp ky gt....????" dgn muka khwatir'y.
'n walo pun jelas gw yg paling tua diantara kita b'tiga, tapi mreka bdua lebih bs dewasa n mikir lebih waras dr pd gw.
yh, ky gmn pun kliaan gw slalu sayang kliaan bdua selama'y........... TAKECARE.. gw ttep ykin kliaan bdua gkan lakuin stupid things ky gw.....x)
Posted by ggar'' at 20.42 0 comments
Posted by ggar'' at 20.13 0 comments
ganti hari ganti bulan 'n ga kerasa ganti taun. kul ud 1 smester n nunggu markSHIT. moga IP gw bs bkin bokap senyum, bukan ketawa ngledek.
heran jg, jauh dari rumah malah bikin gw akur ma org rumah. ga bentak-bentakan tiap hari ma nyokap. ga nangis sambil banting pintu kamar gara-gara dibentak bokap. ga pergi pagi pulang malem n didiemin org serumah. ga nganggep ade gw invisible ampe kadang lupa mereka sekarang ud kelas brapa sih.
gw kira gw bakal benci ma yg nama'y depok. tapi gw betah. yap. betah. dapet hidup baru yg nyadari gw klo taun ni umur gw bakal 20. DUAPULUH.
anjrit, ud tua gw. nyesel napa dulu gw mogok ga mau sekolah n gw telat masuk SD. makin nambah aja mulut-mulut yg nyapa gw "tante". bete ah.
tapi napa, ga banyak juga yg brubah dari diri gw. tetep, egois. boros. cengeng. manja. tapi gw bakal tetep manja mpe kapanpun, coz diaa blng diaa suka ce manja (...xp). o iya satu lagi, berat badan gw ga naik-naik 4 taun terakhir ni, yg ada malah turun dgn jahat'y.
gw suka depok.
gw suka kamar kosan gw. berantakan. tapi gw ud mulai ngrasa 'ni kamar gw'. ga ada ade yg gangguin gw tidur. ga ada mamah yg bangunin gw kepagian. hehe..
gw suka kampus gw. gw suka jalan penuh pohon yg gw lewatin tiap pagi.
gw suka kelas gw. gw suka diem d jendela kelas gw, liatin hutan, liatin tupai-tupai lewat. gw suka kelas gw, ngliatin diaa senyum-senyum sambil maen uno (masih belom ngerti apa rame'y sh?). dan diaa pasti ga tau ud dari kapan gw sering senyum ndiri ngliat diaa. ahahaii..
'n seudah satu taun enam bulan dua minggu yg ud fade out dari idup gw, gw harap diaa yg bakal terus ngisi hari-hari gw jd 'penuh' lg n_n.
Posted by ggar'' at 18.42 1 comments
When i try my best but i don’t succeed
When i get what i want but not what i need
When i feel so tired but i can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down my face
When i lose something i can’t replace
When i love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
No lights will guide me home
And never ignite my bones
And no one could try to fix me
And high up above or down below
When i'm too in love to let it go
But if i never try i’ll never know
Just what i'm worth
Maybe later, a lights will guide me home
And ignite my bones
And someone will try to fix me?
kliatan'y pesimis bgt yh gw? feel so damned. numb with all. what a fuckin' heartache?
It's over tonight
There's no more chance to make it right
I may make it through the night
I'll go home without you
nyesek bgt.
gw benci smua hal d pagi ni.
he hopes, i'm ok with all.
he hopes, this is the way that i could stand.
he hopes, this is my way n all i want.
he said, " is there 'tomorrow' for us? i'll be waiting for a chance. i'll show all that i've said. i'll give all that i've promised. i know i'm wrong. i know i just a silly blind boy. but i never fool u with all my dream. u'll be my last. "
T_T
PLEASE just take ur heart off of me. don't say anything 'bout us. stop promised me everythings 'bout dream. u've broke me n there'll be no way to fix me back.
.....
nothing last forever but be honest, baby. it hurts but it maybe the only way.
Posted by ggar'' at 15.46 0 comments
THERE IS NO PLACE I'D RATHER BE THAN RIGHT HERE WITH HIM .
Posted by ggar'' at 06.32 1 comments
gar
sayang
diaa
senyum
diaa
cara
diaa
sayangin
gar
buat
gar
ktawa
lagi
gar
sayang
diaa
smua
care
diaa
smua
hadir
diaa
d hari"
gar
gar
butuh
diaa
slalu
dket
gar
n_n
dear GOD.
let him be the one who loves me all the time.
n.n
wlo btuh waktu gar buat fokusin hati gar cm buat diaa. wlo mgkn ga bntar wkt yg gar btuhin buat lupain hari" kmrn gar. tp gar bner" pgn sayangin diaa. slalu. ga mau ga ada diaa. moga diaa ngerti gar. moga diaa ga bikin gar nyesel. buat gar prcaya lagi ma smua.
Posted by ggar'' at 05.46 0 comments
What if I wanted to break jgn pernah balik lg. ................................................................. jgn dtng lg. jgn panggil gw lg. jgn egois. jgn bwt gw ngliat lo lg. biarin gw. idup gw bkn urusan lo lg. gw ud ksi smw yg tbaik dr gw. tp ni pilihan lo. let me go out. let me live my life. "my life". wont ever be "our life" anymore.
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
gw ud sering bilang. gw bs muak.
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
gw bukan guardian angel. lo yg harus'y jagain gw.
Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you
d anggep ap gw? lo jadiin kata maaf cm buat skedar jeda buat salah yg lo ulang-ulang-ulang-ulang.
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
lo? "cinta" yg paling egois yg pernah gw punya.
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you
gw ud cb. jd org plng perfect yg ad dlm diri gw. buat lo. buat lo. buat lo.
Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you
why all must end by this way? bagian plng sakit, smua janji" yg ga smpet btw d jdiin nyata.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
enough.
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
gw y gw. jgn bandingin gw ma yg lain. jgn minta gw jd org lain. n yg lo lakuin, gantiin gw jd ce lain.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am
there's no chance. there's no soon or later.
Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
u'll regret.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
all i wanted now just let u go out of my life.
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down
jgn balik lg.
What if I wanted to break?
What if I, what if I, what if I
Bury me, bury me
Posted by ggar'' at 04.55 0 comments